Anger Is a Small Thing
How can I be aware during strong emotions? My anger feels like thousands of wild horses are running away with me!
Anger
is a very small thing. If you can just wait and watch, you will not
find “thousands of wild horses.” If you can find even a small donkey,
that will be enough! Just watch it and it will go, slowly. It will enter
from this side and will go out from the other side. You just have to
keep a little patience not to ride on it.
Anger,
jealousy, envy, greed, competitiveness...all our problems are very
small, but our ego magnifies them, makes them as big as it can.
The
ego cannot do otherwise; its anger has also to be great. By its great
anger, and great misery, and great greed, and great ambition it becomes
great.
But you are not the ego, you
are only a watcher. Just stand by the side and let all the thousands of
horses pass – let us see how long it takes for them to pass. There is no
need to be worried. As they come – they are wild – they will go. But we
don’t miss even a small donkey; we immediately jump on it! You don’t
need thousands of wild horses. Just a small thing, and you are full of
anger and fire. You will laugh about it later on, at how stupid you
were.
If you can watch, without
getting involved, as if it is something on the screen of a movie house
or of a TV screen...something is passing; watch it. You are not supposed
to do anything to prevent it, to repress it, to destroy it, to pull out
a sword and kill it, because from where will you get the sword? – from
the same source as the anger is coming. It is all imagination.
Just watch, and don’t do anything – for or against.
And you will be surprised: that which was looking very big, becomes very small. But our habit is to exaggerate.
A
small boy comes home running, and tells his mother – he is not more
than three years old – “Mum, a great lion, roaring loudly, was running
after me for miles! But somehow I managed to escape. Many times he came
very close. He was just about to attack me when I started running
faster.”
The mother looked at the boy
and said, “Tommy, I have told you a million times not to exaggerate!
How can you find a lion in the city...and you have been running for
miles? And where is the lion?”
The boy looked outside the door. He
said, “He is standing there. But, to tell you the truth, it is just a
small dog – very small! But when it was running after me, it
appeared.... You tell me not to exaggerate, and right now you have been
exaggerating that you have told me millions of times.”
Our
minds are very exaggerating. You have small problems, and if you can
stop exaggerating and just see, then by the door a poor small dog is
standing. And there is no need to run miles; your life is not in danger.
When
anger comes to you, it is not going to kill you. It has been with you
many times before, and you have survived perfectly well. It is the same
anger that you have been through before. Just do one thing new – which
you have never done; every time you get involved with it, fighting. This
time just watch, as if it does not belong to you, as if it is somebody
else’s anger. And you are in for a great surprise: it will disappear
within seconds.
And when anger disappears without any struggle, it leaves behind it a tremendously beautiful and silent and loving state.
The
same energy that could have become a fight with the anger is left
within you. Pure energy is delight – I am quoting William Blake: “Energy
is delight” – just energy, without any name, without any adjective....
But you never allow energy to be pure. Either it is anger, or hate, or
love, or greed, or desire. It is always involved in something; you never
allow it in its purity.
Every time
anything arises in you, is a great chance to experience pure energy.
Just watch, and the donkey will go. It may raise a little dust, but that
dust also settles on its own; you don’t have to settle it. You simply
wait. Don’t move from waiting and watching, and soon you will find
yourself surrounded by a pure energy that has not been used in fighting,
in repressing, or in being angry.
And energy is certainly
delight. Once you know the secret of delight, you will enjoy every
emotion; and every emotion arising in you is a great opportunity.Just watch, and bring a shower of delight on your being. Slowly, slowly all these emotions will disappear; they will not come any more – they don’t come uninvited. Watchfulness, or alertness, or awareness, or consciousness, are all different names of the same phenomenon: witnessing. That is the key word.
Osho, The Invitation, Talk #4
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